2011 is going to be better than 2010

2011 was a really tough year for us. It was full of tough news and hard times. There were a lot of tears cried.

-January started off with hubby being laid off for the second time in 6 months. Unfortunately, his new company decided to downsize and he was the new guy with the least experience.

-At the same time we learned that hubby's sperm count was not coming back. It was still zero!

-It took us 6 months to get into the specialized male infertility endocrinologist. It was a long wait filled with many tears of hopelessness.

-It took hubby countless interviews, resumes, and calls for hubby to land another job 7 months after he was laid off.

-The first month of hubby's injections were really hard on his body. He was incredibly sick and uncomfortable.

-We had several friends announce pregnancies or give birth. While we were happy for them, our sadness for our own situation was sometimes overwhelming.

-We had several issues with a family member who were trying to control our lives.

-I am still spotting and bleeding when I shouldn't be.

-Although by ob/gyn has offered to do IUIs for us, I only seem to ovulate on the weekend, so we only were ever able to do one ill-timed IUI.

-My brother (who is also a best friend) moved several states away. I miss him every day although we keep in close touch!

2011 is going to be better. My brother is getting married to a really nice girl & starting grad school! Hubby is already being treated for his issue. We have an appointment with a good RE in our area. (It was originally supposed to be this Friday, but the doctor had an emergency, so it will be 2 weeks from the original appointment...3 weeks from now.) I feel like going to the RE is just what we should be doing to really get this show on the road! I want this to be the year that I get my baby!

The dream...

My mother-in-law called us last night. Apparently she had a dream that I was pregnant and she was calling to see if it is was true. Oh, how I wish it was...I truly wish I have that gift to give our parents for Christmas this year...especially since my brother is moving away this month. I can only hope and pray it will happen for us soon.

If only it were as simple as this...

I may have to pick this shirt up one day.

Things I want...

I don't think this fertility bracelet has any magic powers or anything, but its pretty and it can't hurt...right? It was an expensive week last week...dog got sick, central air died and needed to be fixed, etc, so I don't even want to spend $10 right now, but maybe next paycheck I will go for it!

I want this...