You say it's your birthday.
It's my birthday too, yeah.
They say it's your birthday.
We're gonna have a good time.
I'm glad it's your birthday
Happy birthday to you.
Yes we're going to party party
Yes we're going to party party
Yes we're going to party party.
It was my 31st birthday on Sunday. I thought I would be more upset that another birthday has gone by without me being a mom, but I kept myself busy and just made a point to not think anything negative. And everyone around me was so wonderful that it wasn't hard.
My birthday weekend started off with hanging out with my nephews and sister-in-law on Friday night. My sister-in-law needed an extra hand and we were happy to visit with both her and the boys. My nephews were delightful as always. The baby gave me lots of smiles and baby talk and my older nephew was SO happy to play with his aunt and uncle and even more excited when we told him we would be eating pizza with him. A big hug before bedtime just warmed my heart. If I can't have kids of my own, at least I am blessed with a wonderful relationship with my nephews!
Saturday I spent working both jobs. The girls I work with on Saturday night were so sweet. They got me a card and an ice cream cake. They made me feel so special. I am not really a birthday person, but it is nice when someone acknowledges it. When I went out to the car, there was a single rose on my windshield. My husband had stopped by and put it on my car to surprise me. There was 11 more roses in a vase when I got home!
Sunday I went to the gym and grocery shopping. I ate breakfast with my husband, mom, and Great-Aunt. I did some errands in the afternoon. Then, we went to my In-Law's house for my birthday dinner. I was greeted at the door by my nephew who told me "Happy Birthday" and gave me a dozen roses. I got to spend the evening visiting with everyone. We played trash truck and playdough, talked, laughed, and just enjoyed ourselves. It was a wonderful day!
My husband wrote in my card that by my next birthday, we'll hopefully have a bun in the oven. I hope he is right.
Oh, Aunt Flow also decided to strike with a fury on my birthday, so hopefully, she'll be exiting the house soon!
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Monday, April 26, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
Huh?
Temperature’s rising
Fever is high
Can’t see no future
Can’t see no sky
You know my cycle has this way of making me feel like an idiot. Here I am...a few days into my period and it is still just very light bleeding. My temperature is still up (in fact, it's rather flat). And now I keep questioning whether this is light bleeding or just some REALLY heavy spotting.
Since my acupuncturist is trying to change my cycle (for the better) with herbs and acupuncture treatments, I expect some weird changes. I really do. I just feel like an idiot when I can't tell if my period has started or not. My gut is to say, yes this is my period, but I guess only time will tell. I mean, what kind of girl can't tell if she has AF?
So that leads me to what I want for my birthday: A normal cycle. One that has ovulation at the right time, a normal luteal phase, and a clear starting AF. I used to have one, but apparently I lost it somewhere in the last 8 or 9 years. I told hubby to find out where they sell those and buy a few (in case I lose one), wrap them up, and give them to me for my birthday! Sounds like a plan to me...
Fever is high
Can’t see no future
Can’t see no sky
You know my cycle has this way of making me feel like an idiot. Here I am...a few days into my period and it is still just very light bleeding. My temperature is still up (in fact, it's rather flat). And now I keep questioning whether this is light bleeding or just some REALLY heavy spotting.
Since my acupuncturist is trying to change my cycle (for the better) with herbs and acupuncture treatments, I expect some weird changes. I really do. I just feel like an idiot when I can't tell if my period has started or not. My gut is to say, yes this is my period, but I guess only time will tell. I mean, what kind of girl can't tell if she has AF?
So that leads me to what I want for my birthday: A normal cycle. One that has ovulation at the right time, a normal luteal phase, and a clear starting AF. I used to have one, but apparently I lost it somewhere in the last 8 or 9 years. I told hubby to find out where they sell those and buy a few (in case I lose one), wrap them up, and give them to me for my birthday! Sounds like a plan to me...
Monday, April 19, 2010
All things must pass
All things must pass
none of life's strings can last.
So I must be on my way,
face another day.
It was a frustrating weekend. I worked a 12.5 hour shift at the restaurant on Saturday with a bus person who tried, but was slow and an expo who was nothing but rude to me and the other waitresses. I have to admit...it put me in a bad mood. Hubby was away so luckily he didn't have to deal with my mood!
Sunday, my old friend (spotting) started again. I know I can't expect changes all at once and at least I had progress with ovulation this time. And I am happy that I have seen some changes. It's just that the spotting is so frustrating. I am pretty sure that my period will be here if not by the end of the day, then by tomorrow. I am trying to focus on the positive this cycle. But I can't help but be a little sad every time I start to spot. It means that Aunt Flow will be rearing her ugly head yet again and I have another month of disappointment. At this point I am not even asking to be pregnant...I would just love to have a completely normal cycle.
My 31st birthday is Sunday. I am trying really hard to let go of preconceptions I had about my life. I thought by this birthday I would already have a baby or at least be pregnant. And I think what bothers me the most is that I just don't know if I will be feeling the same way next year. My 30th year wasn't exactly the best of times. My husband got laid off twice (and is still unemployed though he is working hard to find another job), we ran into major infertility issues which are still unresolved, and quite frankly, I am just tired. I am trying to let go of this disappointment and be excited for the coming year. I mean...who knows what this year will bring? It may bring everything I have ever dreamed of. It may be when I have my first normal cycle since I came off birth control. It may be the year in which our child is conceived. It may be the year DH finds a job where he will remain until he retires...you just never know. I know I need to have more faith in God's plan for us. I know a child is in our future...I am just not sure exactly how or when.
none of life's strings can last.
So I must be on my way,
face another day.
It was a frustrating weekend. I worked a 12.5 hour shift at the restaurant on Saturday with a bus person who tried, but was slow and an expo who was nothing but rude to me and the other waitresses. I have to admit...it put me in a bad mood. Hubby was away so luckily he didn't have to deal with my mood!
Sunday, my old friend (spotting) started again. I know I can't expect changes all at once and at least I had progress with ovulation this time. And I am happy that I have seen some changes. It's just that the spotting is so frustrating. I am pretty sure that my period will be here if not by the end of the day, then by tomorrow. I am trying to focus on the positive this cycle. But I can't help but be a little sad every time I start to spot. It means that Aunt Flow will be rearing her ugly head yet again and I have another month of disappointment. At this point I am not even asking to be pregnant...I would just love to have a completely normal cycle.
My 31st birthday is Sunday. I am trying really hard to let go of preconceptions I had about my life. I thought by this birthday I would already have a baby or at least be pregnant. And I think what bothers me the most is that I just don't know if I will be feeling the same way next year. My 30th year wasn't exactly the best of times. My husband got laid off twice (and is still unemployed though he is working hard to find another job), we ran into major infertility issues which are still unresolved, and quite frankly, I am just tired. I am trying to let go of this disappointment and be excited for the coming year. I mean...who knows what this year will bring? It may bring everything I have ever dreamed of. It may be when I have my first normal cycle since I came off birth control. It may be the year in which our child is conceived. It may be the year DH finds a job where he will remain until he retires...you just never know. I know I need to have more faith in God's plan for us. I know a child is in our future...I am just not sure exactly how or when.
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