Burn, baby, burn

Uggg...I don't know what it going on this month. I am not pregnant as I get a BFN at 14dpo. However, my nipples feel like they are burning. They aren't chaffed or anything. It feels internal.

I had so many plans for Sunday, but honestly, I am just TOO tired. I have been seriously lacking energy since I started on progesterone. I know it's normal when that drug is in your system, but it makes me so frustrated. I have so much to get done and not nearly enough time to do it. Even hubby has noticed the cycle of fatigue related to...well...my cycle. Unfortunately, I don't think things are going to get any better with any of the other fertility meds that are probably in store for me.

Speaking of fertility meds, poor hubby's butt is SO sore right now from one of his last injections. We're not sure why this particular injection is so sore, but it is not a happy camper!

And on a side note, I had one of the Discovery channels on last night. A show came on about a woman who gave birth to 2 sets of identical twins. Guess who her fertility doctor was...yup Dr. Castelbaum...our soon-to-be doctor. I was totally shocked when I heard his name. Hubby was a little worried that we may end up the same way, but the show explained that it was 1 in 1 million chance of it happening, so I think he feels confident in the doctor's abilities again!

I currently have the attention span of a gnat...

I really need the next 2 weeks to go by fast because right now all I can think about it going to see the RE. I cannot focus on anything else. I currently have less of an attention span than my 1 year old nephew. I cannot go on this way...

Funny, 2 years ago I was this way in the 2ww because I was nervously waiting to test. Now I am just anxious to see a specialist!

The inevitable...

I started to spot today...I have a feeling that AF is on her way. :( I am going to test on Sunday morning, but I think I already know what the answer is...

A crazy lady has invaded my body

I've been feeling pretty symptom free since my last post...no cramping...no bleeding. The only major symptom has been me being irrationally emotionally. I have noticed I am a bit short tempered and quick to cry. I have had this before with pms, so it isn't a totally new thing for me...but it has been a long time since I experienced it. I have the usual breast swelling, bloat, and fatigue that I get every month with my progesterone.

I test in a few more days. I really am not expecting good news on that front. But I guess I could be wrong.

Feeling better

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces.
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here.
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say, it's all right.

The spotting has finally stopped. It stopped around noon yesterday. It is amazing how much of an affect on my mood spotting has. When it stopped I suddenly felt my mood lift. The cramping continued all day and I have say it was pretty wicked. I have a small amount of cramping today, but I can deal with cramps. It was all the bleeding that concerned me...even if it was brown blood.

Now I am just trying to keep my mind off the 2 week wait. Seriously...my acupuncturist and hubby told me I have to take it easy and keep my mind occupied. Luckily, this time of year is so busy anyway that it won;t be hard to do. Tonight hubby, my sister, and I are going to Holly Night..a Christmas festival nearby. Saturday morning I will be baking cookies with my mom and cousins. Saturday night I am working my usual shift at the restaurant. Sunday I am in NYC bridesmaid dress shopping with my future sister-in-law. If anything, I am concerned that I will just be exhausted on Monday morning!

Could it be?

I think my spotting may have actually stopped. [Knocking on wood]. The cramps are continuing on, but I can deal. At least I am no longer bleeding.

Now, how can I get a window installed into this uterus of mine? I would really like to be able to see what is going on in there?

A little hope with a little help from my friends

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm going to try with a little help from my friends

Yesterday I was in a rotten, negative mood. Spotting always seems to put me in that mind set. And yesterday marked day 3 of spotting. I've also been having some cramping on and off since Monday's IUI.

Hubby and my acupuncturist keep telling me not to worry about it. The procedure was a bit invasive. The doctor had a hard time getting the catheter into my cervix, so obviously my cervix is just irritated and letting me know it. The spotting is becoming less each day although I think the cramping is getting worse. My cramps actually woke me up this morning. I think it is all pretty normal after an IUI though.

I had a nice acupuncture session last night. IT was completely different from the other ones I have had..he had needles in my ears, the top of my head, ankles, and legs. Nothing in the abdomen. He told me that I won't have any more sessions until I know the outcome of my IUI. As I left he told me to take it easy, get lots of rest, and just keep myself distracted for the next week or so. I plan on doing just that!

I think hubby and the acupuncturist are rubbing off on me. I am not in the dark, depressed place that I was yesterday. A glimmer of hope has entered into me.