A Crystal Ball

Many times I've been alone and many times I've cried,
Anyway you've always known the many ways I've tried, but
Still they lead me back to the long, winding road,

I wish I had a crystal ball that could allow me to know if we are meant to have biological children. It would make things so much easier rather than this constant second guessing of ourselves. Should we do this treatment? Is it worth the time and effort to bother with acupuncture? Will this specialist even be able to do something for us? Or will all of this be in vain?

There is just so much uncertainty in our lives right now. We're waiting to hear about jobs that Hubby has interviewed for. We're waiting to get into the specialist. We're waiting to see if acupuncture can help us. Some days I tire of being patient. Some days I just want us to move forward with the process so that we can have a family. I want to be a mom on a Mother's Day instead of looking at all the moms with their kids.