Another day in paradise

Sounds of laughter shades of life are ringing
Through my open ears inciting and inviting me.

It never ceases to amaze me how hopeful I am at the beginning of a new cycle. I don't know if it is that way for other women suffering from infertility. For me there is a feeling of hope at the beginning of each cycle...like my cycle is just going to fix itself and hubby's sperm count will be just fine. Then after I ovulate, the hope tends to go down the tubes once the spotting starts.

But for now, I am hopeful. Right now I am thinking about what our baby would look like, etc.

It was a tough week emotionally last week. There is fighting going on in hubby's family. I was tired and cranky from dealing with people at work. And quite frankly, I was just ready for a day off. I had worked the last 13 days in a row. Friday night we babysat and had a wonderful time with the kids. Sunday I just relaxed. It was lovely.

We have our nephew's baptism this week and I am just hoping that too many people won't be doing the whole "you know..it's your turn to produce offspring" thing. It gets old fast..and I am a little sensitive. My usual MO is to just keep busy with the kids and not hang out with the adults too much.

I started using the fertility monitor this month. We'll see if it is able to predict my cycle. From what I understand, it can take a few months to learn your cycle. Hopefully this isn't a complete waste of money. I've had a HIGH reading for the last 2 days...hopefully I will get a peak reading soon. Hubby and I do want to keep trying. Even if it doesn't result in a baby...at least we feel like we are doing something rather than just waiting.